seem very content with me staying right where I am.
I used to dread going to the doctor because so much was wrong with me. I think I go in to the exam room and still wait for the bad news.
Except my doc is over-the-moon excited about my progress! All of my health marker tests are normal: from my blood pressure to my liver function. I should be thrilled.
I'm not and I let her know it.
She listens for a minute or two and then does something that shocks me: she raises her voice. This is one of the sweetest ladies I know, but it's clear she's frustrated with me. She runs through my numbers and all the changes I've made over the past four years and asks why I'm not as happy she is about my progress to which I respond:
"It's been four years of hard work and I'm STILL morbidly obese!!!"
I don't think I raised my voice that much, but I felt pretty over the top.
We talked about BMI (she hates it) and how I weigh in every day. She's not thrilled with that, either.
"I want you to take a break from the scale. You need to gain some perspective on what you've done so far."
I didn't agree right away. I'm not going to lie to my doctor. What good is that going to do?
I have decided not to share my weigh ins with my daily accountability group. It's not because I'm hiding anything. I think the process of making the screen shot, reflecting/writing about it, etc is just too much. I'll start with getting on the scale, seeing the number and walking away.
Then, when I go on vacation this weekend, I won't be weighing in at all. When I get back, I can make a choice from there.
Maybe my anxiety about not weighing in is telling me I need a break. I think I can keep up my habits without stepping on the scale.
What do you think about getting on the scale every day? Let me know in the comments!
I'm Marie. I'm working toward a 200 lb. weight loss goal. I'm doing it with baby steps. Follow my journey here.