![]() It's deja vu all over again. Something happens to me every time I get to the bottom of a weight decade. Actually, it doesn't "just happen." I do this to myself. I work hard to get through the 10 pounds to get me to the next decade. Then, when I get there I start to experience a panic. This is the first time I'm truly recognizing this pattern. In 5 days I've gained almost 5 pounds. And it started when I hit 290.5. Coincidence? Unlikely. Admittedly, this week has been tough. Usually, I have a high tolerance for pain. However, my left arm has been really wearing me down. I haven't been sleeping well. I'm on new medication, which the doc told me could lead to some water weight gain. These are factors that are likely contributing to my gain. But, truth time. I've found myself grazing like I haven't in a while. Mostly carbs. And that tells me I'm eating for comfort. That and the fact I can't seem to quiet the hungry feeling. That's a sure sign it's an emotional hunger, not a physical one. Some habits are hard to break, even after 4 years. Now that I've recognized the pattern, I'm trying to unpack the WHYs of it. I think there's a few reasons:
The broken soundtrack that I keep hearing is: The changes I need to make will be too much, too soon. I can't handle it. The new soundtrack I need to create is: Make the small changes when the time comes and you won't even notice them. If you haven't heard of the soundtracks concept, then check out author Jon Acuff's newest book, "Soundtracks." It comes out tomorrow and focuses on these repetitive thoughts (soundtracks) that play over and over in our heads. And, he gives some great ways to change the tune. I'll be giving away a copy to one lucky winner from our April Challenge group. Haven't signed up yet? It's not too late! So, what's next? For three days, I've tried to eat at maintenance calories and have not been successful. My normal habit is to eat at deficit, so that's what I'm gong to focus on the next few days. Not eat below my deficit number--try to hit as close to it as I can without going over. It's gong to take me at least a couple of weeks, I'm sure to get back down to that 290 number. I'll have some practice at changing my mindset over how I feel about what comes once I cross into the 289 realm and beyond. And, of course, focus on my other habits: water, sleep, tracking, exercise. They're all connected! Lastly, I don't plan to run away from the feelings of doubt. Maybe for the first time, I'm starting to get how the doubt may be a signal that better things are on the horizon, if I lean into it and not retreat. .
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5/25/2021 02:25:28 pm
Hi Marie -- I'm SO IMPRESSED with how you've handled your daughter's joyous graduation, trip to Disney and back home. I admire your self-honesty and determination so much. Is there somewhere on your website I can download your June habit tracker? I follow you in the HSM community, and want to track my habits for June! You are amazing! Jan Gull
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Marie Rossiter
5/25/2021 02:30:43 pm
Hi Jan! Are you looking for one like this months? I haven't created a challenge/goal tracker for June yet, as I'm still working on it :) But I'm happy to send you a habit tracker like we've had for this month that you can fill in. Let me know and thanks for the lovely post!
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