And here is one I made today, almost one year later:
This is not where I wanted to be at this point of the journey. I've been feeling a lot of "Woulda, coulda, shoulda" moments lately.
The problem is I can't put my finger on what has gotten in my way, other than myself.
A year stuck within the same 5 pounds, like riding a bungee cord, should have an explanation. Something is standing in the way of me staying focused for more than a few days at a time.
The reasons for the stall are pretty simple. Weight loss is primarily about calories in vs calories out. I'm taking too many calories in vs. how many calories I burn. I have been consistently tracking again for almost 3 weeks now, including the over calorie days. The numbers don't lie.
But, getting to the core reason behind my choice to go over on calories, even though I know I shouldn't, will be the key to getting me over this mountain.
You can see the frustration on my face. I KNOW what I want. I know WHY I want it. I need to make the choice to want it badly enough.
The good news in all of this is that I haven't totally given up. I have essentially maintained a 90+ lb. weight loss for a year. I've never done that before--EVER. That gives me hope.
Today, I weighed in at 293.4--up 2.8 pounds from last week.
So, I dust myself off, look in the mirror, ask myself what I'm going to do to get where I want to go. Yeah, I'll beat myself up a little. But, not for long. I have too much work to do.
I don't know where I'll be in a year. I refuse to make promises that I'm uncertain I can keep. But, I know I will work to continue to build and improve my habits and life to keep moving forward, no matter how small the distance I cover.
I'm Marie. I'm working toward a 200 lb. weight loss goal. I'm doing it with baby steps. Follow my journey here.