It’s been a while since I’ve shared an “official weight loss update.”
Those of you who have been around this corner of the internet for a while know the constant battle in my hamster brain over the the emotional value of my weigh ins. For a while, I fought the battle by getting on the scale every day. And, it worked.
Until it didn’t.
Long term weight loss efforts go through many changes. What works for a while often stops being helpful. Learning to let go of what has worked in the past and trusting yourself enough to try something new is part of the journey. It’s scary as hell sometimes.
So, this month, I’ve been trying to do weekly weigh-ins (except when I sneak a peek a little early - cough cough) More on that in a minute.
For August, I have continued my focus on leaning into my habits. In particular, I’ve been working on cutting back on my beloved carbs and trying to keep up some good protein levels. I am NOT doing a specific Macro-counting plan. I simply looked at where my carb intake had been in recent months and decided to scale back a little at a time.
So, how’s it working out?
I am in a new decade. Who said the 70s are just for disco and bell bottoms?
I cannot remember the last time I've been here. So, I guess that really does make the 70s vintage.
I'm not sure of the reasons behind the drop in weight this month. I haven't seen a drop like this in a while.
So, confession time. Today is the second day in a row I got on the scale. I'm learning my emotional attachment to the scale is still strong and it's not always in a negative way.
Yes, many times I let it frustrate me when I don't see a number I like. But, the past two days, I've felt a sense of excitement over the feedback that little box gets me.
I think that's how it keeps me coming back--keeps me hooked.
Not going to lie. I am OVER THE MOON at the new milestone I passed this week. This the lowest weight I've been in so long, I can't remember precisely when.
But, I need to redirect that excitement into the fact that I'm being consistent with habits. I've found ones that are WORKING for me and feel relatively easy.
I'm not white knuckling it. I'm able to adjust as I need and am starting to realize I don't have to nail every one 100% every day to be heading in the right direction. Knowing it/saying it is one thing. Believing it in the heart is another.
Yes, I still struggle with doubt and comparison traps and impatience. But, I am learning to acknowledge them as part of the process and then lean into what is working for me.
So, no weigh in tomorrow. I've weighed in 2x this week. That is enough.
I am enough.
I'm Marie. I'm working toward a 200 lb. weight loss goal. I'm doing it with baby steps. Follow my journey here.